it's been weeks since i last posted anything on this blog....
and u would probably be wondering, what's pohling doing??? she must be VERY busy with her school work, with assignments, midterms, cases, and exams to study for....
well to be honest, i did have a heavier workload this sem...taking 6 modules at one go..... this sem however, is the sem i enjoyed the most academically to be real honest...i felt that i have learnt alot....and i can genuinely feel that i can 'connect' with what i m learning....not like last sem, econs, which i hate, have to 'force' myself to swallow all the facts, then during exam, got panic attack.....
ok ler...moving on to more emo stuff....
lately, i haven't really been feeling that happy ler....those closer to me would probably know why....well, i was happy like 2 months ago....and then suddenly unhappy and awkward, then confused...and then sad and then angry and then happy and then freaking depressed again.....its just an emotional rollercoaster...
the most common feeling i have is 'confused'....the biggest problem i have is i dont know what i want....and that i dont know what i feel....why m i so emotional????? why????? why m i so illogical?? always creating so many dramas and blowing things way out of proportion????and why is some people so logical and lack emotions????? i dont need u to analyse my erratic behaviour...i know i m a crazy and emo girl...no need to analyse my actions for me.... dont manipulate me...dont try to 'read' my mind, coz there nothing much in it apart from many wires that dont connect.....
sometimes i wonder how i can survive all this while, while being so naive and innocent....always so blur, so mung cha cha, so apathetic, what also dont care, dont bother....i m very contented in not knowing too much...sometimes, knowing too much is not a good thing....why are some people always striving to seek the TRUTH??? is the truth really that important???? is it always the best option to do the right thing???
so what type of coffee do i like to drink??? am i drinking the right kind of coffee now???? i dunno.....do i hate the coffee i m drinking now? no.....the coffee taste finee....it taste ok...and it does its job of keeping me awake...but all this caffeine stimulation have sort of grown on me....nowadays, i need a double dose of caffeine to stay awake as compared to before....which led to me thinking that maybe this isnt the 'type' of coffee for me in the long run.....maybe i need a stronger coffee for a coffee addict like me....or is it that i grew accustomed to the coffee i have been drinking lately? i dunno whether i could break the habit of not drinking that coffee....whether i will have any withdrawal effects....but lately, this coffee sort of doesnt taste the same as it taste before....am i sort of getting 'jelak' of the coffee i m drinking????? which got me thinking whether i should try more coffees to compare the taste?? after all, the supermarket has plenty of other coffees that have nicer packaging and reviews?? and u know how much i loveeee a pretty packaging...=)
well anyways, my coffee example is the perfect example as to why too much coffee is bad for health ler...haha...anyways, no need to take my post and rants too seriously ler....i just wanna voice my inner thoughts...=)
okler...havings holidays now since exams over..
will be spending quality time with my popo and my family before going back home for the holidays...=)
feeling calm and happy!!
=)
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