Emo post- a reflection of the past semester

it's been weeks since i last posted anything on this blog....

and u would probably be wondering, what's pohling doing??? she must be VERY busy with her school work, with assignments, midterms, cases, and exams to study for....

well to be honest, i did have a heavier workload this sem...taking 6 modules at one go..... this sem however, is the sem i enjoyed the most academically to be real honest...i felt that i have learnt alot....and i can genuinely feel that i can 'connect' with what i m learning....not like last sem, econs, which i hate, have to 'force' myself to swallow all the facts, then during exam, got panic attack.....

ok ler...moving on to more emo stuff....

lately, i haven't really been feeling that happy ler....those closer to me would probably know why....well, i was happy like 2 months ago....and then suddenly unhappy and awkward, then confused...and then sad and then angry and then happy and then freaking depressed again.....its just an emotional rollercoaster...

the most common feeling i have is 'confused'....the biggest problem i have is i dont know what i want....and that i dont know what i feel....why m i so emotional????? why????? why m i so illogical?? always creating so many dramas and blowing things way out of proportion????and why is some people so logical and lack emotions????? i dont need u to analyse my erratic behaviour...i know i m a crazy and emo girl...no need to analyse my actions for me.... dont manipulate me...dont try to 'read' my mind, coz there nothing much in it apart from many wires that dont connect.....

sometimes i wonder how i can survive all this while, while being so naive and innocent....always so blur, so mung cha cha, so apathetic, what also dont care, dont bother....i m very contented in not knowing too much...sometimes, knowing too much is not a good thing....why are some people always striving to seek the TRUTH??? is the truth really that important???? is it always the best option to do the right thing???

so what type of coffee do i like to drink??? am i drinking the right kind of coffee now???? i dunno.....do i hate the coffee i m drinking now? no.....the coffee taste finee....it taste ok...and it does its job of keeping me awake...but all this caffeine stimulation have sort of grown on me....nowadays, i need a double dose of caffeine to stay awake as compared to before....which led to me thinking that maybe this isnt the 'type' of coffee for me in the long run.....maybe i need a stronger coffee for a coffee addict like me....or is it that i grew accustomed to the coffee i have been drinking lately? i dunno whether i could break the habit of not drinking that coffee....whether i will have any withdrawal effects....but lately, this coffee sort of doesnt taste the same as it taste before....am i sort of getting 'jelak' of the coffee i m drinking????? which got me thinking whether i should try more coffees to compare the taste?? after all, the supermarket has plenty of other coffees that have nicer packaging and reviews?? and u know how much i loveeee a pretty packaging...=)

well anyways, my coffee example is the perfect example as to why too much coffee is bad for health ler...haha...anyways, no need to take my post and rants too seriously ler....i just wanna voice my inner thoughts...=)

okler...havings holidays now since exams over..

will be spending quality time with my popo and my family before going back home for the holidays...=)

feeling calm and happy!!

=)

i love it when it rains

I love it when it rains...

it feels so soothing and calm...

it feels so peaceful...

the raindrops give a very repetitive and relaxing sound...

the rain makes everything more romantic..

i love it when it rains..

The best shampoo i have ever used....Asience

hihi....

didnt have time to blog lately....coz i was super stress from midterms...still got one more on thursday....god, cant wait for it to be over...

sorry about my last blog post....dunno why i was so stressed, but confirm i was having pms....my mood was yoyo-ing the entire week...=)

ok, back to the topic...

today, i wanna talk about shampoo....coz i m having a good hair day....haha...

the shampoo which i m using now is :




Asience shampoo + conditioner...the moisture one...the gold bottle...

it is very moisturising...

bought this from watsons....i think any pharmacy also sells this....its a japanese brand...Kao...but the description on the bottle is all in jap...
it has this very 'weird' smell....and it's really really strong...but i dont really mind it that much...but it really is a very very good shampoo...

i cant imagine using any other shampoo either than this shampoo....i sort of fell in love with it....

but hor, this shampoo got one tiny problem, when u wash your hair, u must really make sure u clean your scalp thoroughly, to avoid leaving a residue that can cause dandruff...

and the price of the shampoo i think it's about the same as Pantene....i think? dunno ler...but one bottle can last very long....but it;s still not as good as salon brands like kerastase..

very good for dry hair....this is the only shampoo that can control my frizzy hair...
and the ends of my hair dont feel so dry....

coz last time i used Dove, the old that came in the dark blue bottle, it was the moisture therapy for dry hair/damaged hair...it wasnt moisturising enough for me...

and i used the pink sunsilk one before for a super long time, this one smells very nice, but hor, really a bit dry for me also...

so if anyone has dry hair, try Asience...very good!

rough day

i had a rough day today....

why everyone always come to me to release their stress?? complain about stuff they r not happy with?? let all their frustration out by telling me???

just because i appear calm and relaxed does not mean i m ok...

dont people realise i get stressed tooo??? i have worries toooo???

i have exams toooo???? midterms toooo????

assigments toooo??? u think only ur assignment is difficult ah???

u think only ur midterms r hard ar????

do i complain when i have too much to do to you ? to much to worry about????

no....coz i have no one to talk to when i m unhappy...

and i dont wanna burden other people with more negativity when they have their own stuff to worry about...

as much as i care for people around me, sometimes i swear, i get annoyed when people seem to only lash out their 'sadness'?? on me, while being insensitive enough not to notice when i'm unhappy???

arrrrrghhhhh...

arrrrrrrrrghhhh....i'm just stressed......from life............

i just wanted to let it all out.....

i'll be fine....i just had a moment of weakness..

2moro will be another day.....

and i'm sure it will be a better day...

=)

Falling..

My current favourite song..



i love it..

falling ...by a korean pianist named Yiruma..
the person playing this song is this leekaiwei person...i just randomly took it from youtube..

going back to the roots

last time when i was younger, i used to like helping other people....really i do....
it just makes me feeling happy and ...contented??

well...then when i came to singapore, suddenly i find myself being less willing to help and more calculative? ...coz i m scared that people will take advantage of me??

well...sometimes i really feel that i have changed alot...

but recently..i have been going back to my roots...

doing what i used to like to do...

reading stuff i used to like to read...

listening to songs i used to like to listen to...

watching dramas i used to like to watch...

arrgh...i'm going back to the old pohling...

which can be good and bad..

i feel i have found myself again after being lost in the maze of change, conflict and time...

(^.^)

i feel like a stalker today...

checking out profiles of people i dont really know...

Last minute queen...

I know i haven't been updating my blog lately.....my blog posting frequency has dropped till like once every 2 months....well, the main reason why i haven't been writing is caused there's nothing much going on actually....haha....everything is like normal....well, to look from the positive side, no news means good news....from a negative side, my life is boring....haha..

ok, so let me walk you through how i spent my day today...warning: it's bloody sien....=)

so this morning, my phone alarm rang at 8am...coz i had class at 10am....who am i kidding?? how would i be able to wake up so early.....i shut the alarm....slept for a while more...then finally at 8.15am, i manage to drag myself up from my bed....i think it's because i sleep with a 'comforter'....if i sleep with a comforter, it is much harder for me to get up in the morning...because it is so warm and fuzzy...=)

then woke up, brush teeth, take breakfast...make coffee....coz i must drink nescafe 3in 1..i only drink nescafe 3 in 1, cannot drink any other coffee...

then suppose to do my sociology assignment....but end up watching youtube....
9.50am..walked to arts for world history tutorial....
ok, about this tutorial....my tutor happens to be the lecturer, and he is kinda intimidating....seriously.... i dunno why....normally during tutorials, i'm kinda chill and calm...but during this tutorial, my heart is like racing so fast the entire time....normally i have things to say and even if i didnt read the readings hor, my strategy is to 'ask a question'....it always works....nothing to contribute nevermind, ask a question, confirm can get tutorial participation marks... but seriously, this lecturer kinda made everyone kinda a bit shy to say something....but nonetheless, of coz i got say something lar....coz the readings kinda overlap with my asian history readings....analyse before what....sure got things to say one...

anyway, tutorial went kinda ok...=) did I mention i loveeee history....i just love history.....u can learn so much about human nature by taking history.....and history always repeats itself....
very interesting...niceee...

and yea, then i walked back to my room....then i quickly did my soci assignment....coz dateline is at 5pm....procrastinated until 2pm...then quickly chop chop and goreng an assigment out...4.15pm, print the bloody assignment out, walked to arts to submit...oh yea, somemore i couldnt find the tutor;s post box...walao, i had a panic attack lar....scared submit late...
luckily i saw this girl from my tutorial group, she told me where it was...

then i walk back to my room...then watch youtube, dumped my clothes into the washing machine.....and now typing this blog lor...

see...basically my life is more or less the same like this everyday day......go for classes....procrastinate.....panic....then rush rush hush hush goreng assignment....then the whole cycle repeats itself again....

yups....that's it...

peace out!

Troubled soul....

It's late...it's dark...and i'm sitting on a bench at central forum....

I'm troubled...hoping to solve the problem that cant seem to be resolved...

Should i go for option A? but it would be kinda inconvenient..

How bout option B? Risky....but with high risk comes with high return...but i could get my friend into deep deep trouble.and it's not even funny anymore...help....

ARRGGHH....i cant decide on what to do...and it's bothering me...

the day will come when i have to pay the price...yea...and it's not gonna be cheap..

Ants everywhere!

arrgh....there's ants everywhere in my room....they seem to follow me around wherever i go....
in the beginning of the sem, there isnt a single ant in sight,.but nowadays, anything food i put on the table, they will attack....

they are like crawling here and there...i'm freaking sure they are having a nest behind the board or the window seal....i dont really want to kill it, but they get really annoying, crawling here and there...

that's becoz i m always lazy and i leave my dirty cup on the table for very long before i wash it, then the ants start to come...arrghh....go away ants...

and not only the black ants, there's read ants as well...and a few of it bit me before....how to get rid of these bloody buggers?

the other day, they attacked my 'bread loaf' and even dry instant noodle packet that it not even open yet....arrgh...nowadays, i rarely leave any food on the table unguarded ...

luckily there's only another week to stay in this room...pity the person who will be staying in this room next sem....since i have invited in so many tiny 'friends' in..

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It's May!!

Oops...i cant believe it, its May already....how quick time passes...and in 6 days, I'll be done with my 2nd year of uni....so fast...



The month of May reminds me of many things...



and 1st of May is Labor Day...and it's my bro's fiance's birthday....i remember hor....maybe i try calling her 2moro...but they going back Malaysia....so see how lar....



Labor day is suppose to be a day for all workers to rest...and tomorrow is definitely NOT a rest day for me....coz next week i have to critical final exams...does that mean that uni students work harder than working people?? haha..jk...i'll be having 3 months of holidays...yippee...

starting to feel a bit homesick already...it's always like that...I'm like anticipating my return home....can't wait..in another week....=)



in a really random note, May remains me of the band MayDay....wu yue tian...=)



u know, i read this non fiction bio book called 'Supernatural' before, they claim that people born in May are smarter naturally.....they claim that babies conceived in August/September are smarter...so if u are conceived then, after 9 months and 10 days, u should be born in the month of may...they say it's due to some natural forces or seasonal weather or something like that....



in another unrelated note, i feel that way too many chinese girls are called 'May' already...or ah mei, or mei mei...or some other kind of variation....too many already...nice name, but way too common...at least that's what i feel....if i ever have a daughter, i would never call her May...or June....another popular name...or April or January...



=)

10 Physical Impact Uni Exams Can Do To You

1. U tend to eat double the portion of food u normally consume....your brains must be consuming lots of energy....so next time u wanna lose weight, just do math equations and skip the gym...(just kidding k)
   
   
2. Your eyes are drier than usual....irritated at times...and a bit strained from all the reading....
   
   
3. U realise that your hair is dropping way way too much in huge amounts that u r worried that u might have no hair left..
   
   
4. U have this huge urge to watch youtube, play facebook,friendster, watch drama, play computer games to procrastinate and avoid doing any actual 'studying'..
   
   
5. "mugging" is the ugliest word in your dictionary..
   
   
6. U realise that coffee isnt helping u stay awake anymore....oh well, i guess i'll just have to double the dose of caffeine...=)
   
   
7. U realise that time passes 10 times faster than usual...
   
   
8. Sleeping is "NOT" a priority as of now...it's a luxury...
   
   
9. Your short term memory sort of go haywire....like u cant remember what u had for lunch yesterday..
   
   
10. Your legs are always getting 'numb' or 'pins and needles' due to sitting for such a long period of time...=)

4 more days to go!!

Britain's Got Talent! Part 1

lately, i have been obsessed with this show called
BRITAIN'S GOT TALENT!!!
yay!! it's the only thing that's keeping me sane these days...it's so freaking entertaining...

its like the most amazing show on tv right now....1000 times better than american idol...yea really..no joke....

and this season, there has been amazing acts such as singers Susan Boyle, Shaheen....etc...

this show is about love, compassion and Simon Cowell is so much nicer here than in american idol.....

This season, i m loving(so far only 3 episodes have been aired)=)and i have watched every single one of it..:

1. Susan Boyle, this 48 year old lady who sings very well....never been married, never been kissed and lives with her cats...when she first walked out, everyone was like prejudging her and everything...and then she sang, and boy was everyone amazed...=)quite likable lady...and i almost cried when i heard her sing....somemore, she kinda reminds me of my auntie...dunno why...there's some resemblance.. i put the link down here if anyone wants to watch it...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY



2. Diversity (a dance act) i like this group.....i find them quite likeable..=) there are a few other dance groups, but this is my favourite...=)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ObZlmDpGKsM



3.DJ talent...a really lame act, but i like him....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqlRkrTw60M

all he ever does is say his catchy phrase:

I say britain

we say you say talent

britain's got talent,

its the DJ talent....


i find him quite funny..=)



Past year winners/finalists...

1. George Sampson: last year's winner!! singing in the rain dance...
i like the song....=)



2. This is my ultimate favourite:
KATE AND GIN...
the dog is so cute and smart....why cant my dog do that???? my dog only can eat, sleep and poop only....oh well, but i still love my dog very much....
i watched this like at least 10 times already...but i never seem to get bored with it...=)




=)

horror!!!!!!!!!

just came back from macroecons test just now....and it was....
















HORRIBLE!!!!!!

thinking about it makes me wanna cry....the test consist of 3 main questions....aiyo..all 3 also i dunno how to do leh.....die....really dunno how to do....but of course, i didnt leave the paper blank....i wrote some rubbish which i m pretty sure the chance of it being correct is less than 10 % lor....the 2 hours passed like lightning, everytime i blink my eyes, it's like 10 seconds have passed....bloody hell...not enough time to think lor...and worse still, i linger so long at one question without being able to write something...waaaaa.......really want to cry liao...

after the test i came back to my room, feeling like a deflated balloon.....so upset....blaming myself for being so stupid....so i thought, i need to shower...i need to shower NOW....so i grabbed all my toiletries and clothes to the bathroom...then half way through washing my hair, omg..i forgot my body wash.....die....my head full of soap liao......so u know what, i used my facial cleanser to bathe...haha...very wasteful right...clearly, my mind is NOT in a stable state right now....

waaaa.......so sad...

and another thing, how do u tell your parents about how u did in your exams??? coz sometimes my mum might randomly call me and ask how are things, and how was my exam...

whatt should i tell her?? that i did great?? wa...downright lying...
i did ok?? this confirm is not true lar...
i did horrible?? what if she gets worried?? i dont want my mum to worry about me...
to tell the truth or not?? coz i dont lie to my parents one...really, i never have, i never will...
but sometimes, i dont tell the 'whole' truth...haha..but i wont lie...really...anyway, i m a horrible lier, so very easy to tell if i m talking bullshit..

i better go and study for next weeks paper already...dont want to have another nightmare next week.... i think i will go throw away my econs notes now...looking at it makes me irritated..
glad i've gotten everything off my chest..

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Najib appointed Selangor Umno Chief

Oo hoorrr.......najib is Selangor Umno Chief....remember a few months ago, he was Perak Umno chief during BN's swift takeover in Perak??? is this merely a coincidence??

ho ho ho....Selangor better watch their back....warning alert!!!

I earned $32.50 cash in 2 hours..

haha, that's the only exciting thing that happen to me today...

i took part in this random trading experiment thingy....throughout the semester, these professors conduct these experiments and try to coax students to participate...

this morning, the one i went for, pays $10 show up fee...then u have to trade, buy and sell for 3 market rounds...whatever u win in that round, u get to take home...so i won, 22.50...so total, my net gain for my 2 hours spent is 32.50...woo hoo....my highest yield from surveys so far....somemore i'm so amateur....made so many wrong decisions...like the last round i couldnt sell off my assets...i'm sure some other ppl may have won more...study week also never mind lar...actually i went for other surveys before, but marketing and econs survey cannot earn much lor, normally only got $5 or $10 show up fee only...that's all..

anyways, i'm still happy...yippee...i wish it was that easy to earn money in real life...=)

How to recreate Ipoh Old Town White Coffee 3in1

hi.....i'm sure many of u have tried, ipoh old town coffee right??? like the one below??? quite nice right???

taste great..

but sometimes, u may not have the 3in1 packets available...somemore sometimes quite expensive right??? .so this is how to recreate the same taste....simply add

1.Daisy FNN Milk.....only daisy hor, dont use marigold HL milk, coz different taste....

with

2. a packet of Super Coffeemix 3in1....preferably the reduced sugar one...and the taste willl turn out almost similar to ipoh old town white coffee....really cannot tell the difference one....try it...=)

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I'm officially legal!

Hi....so i finally turned 21 yesterday!! yippee....

actually to be honest, i didnt really feel anything really different...it really felt like any other birthday....haha...i;m not that particular about birthdays or anniversaries one lar...haha...
but thanks for the birthday wishes...thank you all from the bottom of my heart...

birthday dinner with family at Manhattan fish market... the rice was really nice...

sorry the photo a bit blur...

so i celebrated my birthday last saturday with family....and went for dinner with lemon and jun ghai yesterday....that was it...simple and sweet...=) no party or anything...i know many people like to hold birthday parties when they turn 21...

actually, i spent the whole day of yesterday in the library...i know, i damn sian right?? no life one this girl...haha...=)hmm...this week is study week lar...

anyways, i'm just happy that i'm finally joined the 'lao ren jia' group....haha=)

what's all the hype about turning 21??

peace out!

Aries WoMAN

ARIES WOMAN
my horoscope.....it's really really funny...and quite accurate i guess....thanks michele for sending the email....and the purple text are my comments...whether i think the statement is true or not..=)

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She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal
frame(really meh??). She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and
often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real, so she will feel hurt(i do get hurt, so this is true!). She think her path has to be a beautiful one. She think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed.(not really lar)

If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or
mixture of character. (wow, quite accurate!!, especially the thin lips part!)

Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize everything from her childhood. (wtf?? what CPU?? my memory is horrible)When she faces with problems, she will handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, nothing will stop her. ( this last sentence is true..if i want something, i will get it...i'm really really stubborn..=))

Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek.(flash dance?? dirty dancing?? hahahahaha) She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold and non-social person.(i'm the cold type...defintely not the 'wanted by many men' kind...) She will have her own way to win you over. Once she choose you, she will need to be proud of you.

'Love' is not as important to her as 'Marriage'.(Marriage??? hmm... i wanna wait till 30 lar..) Her real goal in life is 'Safety' and her position in other people sight need to be 'Secure'. She
plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully.(really meh??) She is also very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance because she loves ambition and a good life.(kinda true i guess...) She need lots of love,but do not want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love.(wtf?? everyone wants to be loved what.. dont you?)

She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth anyway (ya meh?? noble family?? wtf??). She always look cool even when she is not.( haha, act cool..) She like to make people see her as 'secure and confident' even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type.(more of depressing rather than mixed emotions..) If she is mad, you can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time.(true, dont mess with me when i;m angry...i can be really bitchy when i;m mad..)

You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some spare times working for charity.(me and charity in one sentence??) You will see woman in this zodiac a
'Volunteer' for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely be a president or a V.P. of a 'Club'. She is a romantic and artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. (quite true lar)

A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. (hmm...no comment)

If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person,but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it. (haha...the last sentence kinda funny....yes, i;ll stick u down and nail u to the floor....gosh....wtf...hahaha)

Interesting video

I came across this video last night during my 'break', i totally freaked out....
that guy's voice is so freaking high...wow!!



i'll be taking my finance test 2moro, been studying for the past 3 days...
recently, i've been trying the 2o minute period method...
that means, study for 20 minutes, take a short break then study for 20 minutes again...coz they say its not efficient to study a long period of time..

i also feel that its better in 20 minutes period...but, normally when i take a break, my break is so freaking long..haha...

ok...wish me luck in my finance test..

byes!

Tidak membalas budi = Ungrateful??

well well well...our newly appointed DPM has only been in office for 1 week but he has already screwed up with his 'loose' mouth...in an interview with a Malay Language magazine, he says that he does not understand why the chinese voters did not vote in favor of BN and he says that the chinese 'tidak membalas budi'....welll well well....so over the past week, there has been an ongoing debate over what is the meaning of 'membalas budi'?? does it mean that ethnic chinese MALAYSIANS are ungrateful?? i myself am not very sure of the meaning of the words...

but really, these politians need to stop being so '2 faced' u know...
pls dont go saying one thing to a group of people and saying something different to another group of people...why??? coz there;s such thing called the 'media', and information flows very quickly and efficiently nowadays...

honestly, i dont even care if membalas budi means 'ungrateful' or 'unappreciative'..coz it doesnt really make a difference to me....

all i hope is that these politicians stop all this useless bickering and unethical racist comments and start working....pls dont deviate from the main issues like the economy and corruption...whether the DPM's statement was twisted or not is a totally different issue, and all this distraction is certainly not helping Malaysia at all...

my take on this issue:

as a malaysian...yes yes, i always identify myself as malaysian first, followed by my ethnic group, i'm chinese, i m not really offended by what the DPM said...no use being angry or irritated over such a small issue right? BUT i'm sure it will affect my perception and probably many other fellow malaysians towards the current federal government.... all these tiny miny events will add up towards my vote in the next general election...if i decide to vote that is..=)

weekend update

Last weekend, my parents came down for a visit....they were in JB for work, then they came over to singapore to meet up with us....which was nice....so long never see them liao...and also so long nvr see my kokos..they thought what happen to me, MIA for so long...

a nice relaxing weekend spent with family....and this week, is the start of exams...so fast... but i'm taking a day at a time... dowan to kan cheong..

ok, that's all...nothing much...just feel tired all the time....dont know why....

The Mean kitty song

i cooled down already.....i;m not sad anymore...coz i was watching youtube instead of doing school work.....

watch this cute kitty, he's so cute!!



=)

i'm so frustrated.. i just wanna scream....

ARRRRRGGGGHHHHHH!

i just feel so frustrated and angry and lost right now.....it's just, everything is happening at the same time, i just cant keep track........i feel scared and worried......why?? coz i really dunno what i wanna do in future.....yup, now i m taking finance and operations modules...and i m so lost in class.....the more i study it, the more i dislike it......i just dont get the 'finance' hype thingy....almost 70% of my coursemates loveee finance...and i can bet with my last dollar, all of them, their dream job is to work for investment banks like jp morgan, morgan stanley, etc...
why? coz they say it will make u freaking rich..$$$$...money money money...that's all that matters...
thursday is financial markets class as usual, and its the longest 3 hours of my entire week.... 1st major problem, i can hardly make up what the lecturer with the thick chinese accent is saying...i mean, her english is fine, it's just the accent...i will be having the quiz next week....so 7 days to prepare....i plan to read like 2 chapters per day, to like split the 'pain' u know...i dunno lar....i lack the 'money making' intuition u know....u dont really have to study finance to know how to do business u know....sometimes, it is more of judgement and intuition...
i m having second thoughts about specialising in finance....i m thinking of dropping out of it...=(..

school has been horrible lately....i just few awful....every bloody module is so confusing.....i'm so behind.....next week is the deadline of submission of supply chain assignment, and i m still trying to figure out the solution....coz it's individual assignment, and i couldnt really ask my friends, coz well, there's only 'ONE" answer...but we do discuss on the method to do...

and up till now, i still havent been able to find an internship....today's the 9th, this sem's gonna be over on the 6th of may....that means i have less than a month to search for a job....i'm so scared....there are hardly any more places available...and i have to keep applying amidst all these assignments that are going on....somemore this year, most internships require students to work for 6 months? recession has hit even interns....last year, there are plenty of internships lying around lor....this year, so few....sigh...if not, then i just come home and spend 3 months with my popo....anyways, i long time never go home liao....a few months oredi....actually i havent spent much time at home ever since i came to singapore to study....maybe what i need is a holiday....yes...get myself refreshed....

gosh...i will be graduating next year, and i can foresee that looking for a job next mid year aint gonna be easy...and worse yet, i dont really know what i wanna do in future....i dont think i will wanna work like as an OL lar...9 to 5 job....i dont really wanna work in a bank either....arrrgggghhh, i so mixed up....i dont even feel like working...

i'm all over the place.....and i'm so upset and frustrated, i dont even bother to check my spellings..

peace out

2 vs 1

The results are out...

Pakatan rakyat won the 2 bukits..

BN won batang ai-sarawak..

ok...let's see the post mortem analysis..

there's never a dull day in Malaysia's politics..

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3 'buy' elections

so today is the by- elections day for the 3 places....i wonder who will win??

i hope it's...........

let's wait and see.....

btw, lately, Puan Hee gave a press conference....i read her answers to the reporters i also wanna laugh....no eyes to see...no voice to speak...'hak yan chang'...
somemore timing so good hor, now only wanna come out to give 'explanation'...
hidden motives...she say she did not receive any 'monetary' incentives from BN...really ah??
i totally believe what she says....coz she's an honest lady....especially when she visited her office in Jelapang recently in a flashy 'hey look, i'm loaded!' Mercedes....which i'm sure she has a totally believable explanation behind that..maybe the car is not hers, OR she bought it with her own hard saving money...ya ya....everything she say is totally true...yaya....correct correct correct(in a lingam voice)..haha

well, let's wait and see who won in the by elections..

good luck!

of veggies and yoga

hi..

this morning, i woke up, and when i brush my teeth, my gums started to bleed a lot.literally blood everywhere...like dracula....i was so scared and shocked...my gums, especially near one of my front set of teeth like a bit swollen .....dunno whether it's scurvy or some gum infection...anyways, i see how lar...maybe 2moro i go and buy listerine and rinse my mouth...i feel like my gums are kinda numb right now....if really nvr recover in a week, then i go see dentist...

Lately, i've been watching lots of 'health' related stuff on youtube...
last saturday i did a bit of yoga.....long time never do liao...i do all the simple beginner poses...then sunday, my muscle ache...coz i didnt warm up before i do the poses...it reminds me of how much i miss ballet, my first love...=)

and i wanna start eating more veggies and fruits and very little meat... today whole day i nvr eat any meat....i eat 'economy rice' i choose the vegetable and egg only...no meat...maybe eat meat like once every 2 days lar... coz i feel eating meat is like indirectly killing animals...and hor, i read somewhere before that to produce 1 portion of meat, u need to feed the animal 5 portion of plants/ feedstock..not environmentally friendly... see how long i can keep this up...
anyways, nowadays i already eat very little meat..but i'lll drink soya milk for protein...so like not much difference..

suddenly so health concious...dunno why..

ciao

Presentation and Assignments

2 april- thursday

hihi...

havent had the time to blog these few days as i was rather busy with projects and presentations... i had 2 presentations today, morning is business communication and afternoon is macroecons...

well, biz comm went rather well i guessed...i didnt forget anything major...and i didnt stammer...no awkward silences...the critique that i got was generally ok....but the tutor said that i need to project my voice more...ok..noted..and the group critiqu-ing said i had 'sparkling eyes'...yes...i quoted directly what they said...it took me some time to figure out what does it mean....the first thing that came to my mind was sparkling juice...haha....but it's not really a bad comment i guess...but i put in a lot of effort practising my presentation, and i find it ironic to get a comment on my eyes...=) but anyways, it was ok...

econs presentation was however a disaster i would say....our group have to present 3 questions, but becoz we thought that the answer for question 2 and 3 was almost the same, we decided to totally skipped question 3...but the worst thing was that the tutor said that question 2 and 3 was different...horror...what a nightmare...and we didnt prepare the slides for question 3....there was this long awkward silence.......i wish i could just vaporise into the thin air and disappear...
there goes our tutorial participation marks...luckily it's a group effort...at least there's ppl to share the 'pain'...

well....so now, have 2 supply chain assignments due in 2 weeks time...genes and soc assignment due 2moro...and i have to start applying for internships...die...this sem, i really dont feel like working during the summer holidays...but i'll try to look for one and see lor...if cannot get, then haha, then i can say it's fate..and i did try...

anyways, i do have to admit that i do like group projects...dunno why...ever since year 1 up till now, all the groups i have ever been have been really nice....i have heard of friends who encounter horrible groupmates...i'm just glad that i dont have to go through any horrible experiences...

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If you seek Amy

29/3- Sunday

I can't believe that i'm like so slow with this....

Britney Spears song ' If you seek Amy"...it has nothing to do with a girl named amy..

i cant believe i had to listen to the song so many times to get it....gosh...i;m retarded...

haha...

it was very cleverly named....=)

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Egg explosion

27/3- Friday

Ok, so last week, when i went grocery shopping, i bought eggs....so so far, i have only ate one egg, which i put into my instant noodle....so i still have lots of eggs there left untouched...dunno egg got expiry date or not...

so just now, i thought of maybe making 'hard boil eggs' ...and i didnt really know how to 'cook' it...
coz i dont wanna trouble myself using the stove and stuff....anyway, i always felt the kitchen very 'dirty' and full of germs...

so 'smart alec' me, i went to put an egg into a cup of hot water and put it into the microwave in 'high' for 2 minutes....walao...the egg EXPLODED....
die....and the egg splashed everywhere in the microwave...and i have to clean up the mess...
gosh..i didnt know that cannot cook eggs with the shell in the microwave...stupid me...i think it's the pressure...

last time, when i cook 'quaker oats' in the microwave in canada, it exploded as well because of the pressure...

lesson learned...

no eggs in microwave dumbass...

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Smile- Barbara Streisand...

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fears and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

* Such a classic song....one of my favourites...=)

Oh well...

26/3- Thursday

Sometimes, when u want something so desperately. u might not get it in the end...

however, u might end up getting stuff that u dont really want in the first place, that is just as good or something u have never thought of before...so i suggest we all stop trying...

sometimes, when u go looking for something specific that u want, u will never be able to find it...

however, u may stumble upon something u want when u r not looking for it...

oh well, life's a bitch..

Kiss the Rain video

25/3- Wednesday

The is a song called Kiss the Rain by Yiruma, lyrics by hienie, sang by globscotch(youtube), perfomed by me.. haha.. actually i wanted to really sing with my very own voice, but my microphone isn't working... this song is actually suitable for my range...



Sorry, the song and the webcam wasn't syncronised... Believe me, when i was filming it, it was exactly according to the song.....but once i upload it onto blogger, everything sorta run...gosh..

credits to the original singer...

Do u guys like it??? what do u all think?? i was just playing with my webcam...=)

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I'm feeling hot in here...

24/7- Tuesday

yups...last night, i couldnt sleep well coz my body was feeling really really hot...heaty...crazy...maybe it's something i ate or something, but i felt so uncomfortable...like there's fire inside me...i tossed and turned in my bed for hours and still cant sleep..then finally i ate panadol and went to bed.. meat makes me heaty..which is why i eat 3 parts vegetable to 1 part of meat normally.. seriously, i;m eating very little meat nowadays, sometimes no meat for like 3 days straight, but i can't go totally vegetarian...coz i miss all the good stuff..=)

on an unrelated note, u know what type of exams i hate the most?? it's not the super difficult kind...because it's bell curve, and if it's really difficult, and everyone cannot do, they will shift the bell curve.. but it;s those exam that are vague, ambiguous and bloody hell tricky... u know, those MCQ questions that have a few answers, like the answer can be a or b...or even worse, those MCQ questions that are poorly set, that have no correct answers at all...and u spent time during exam trying to figure out the answer and realise that none of the answer is within the range of your answer and u have to end up 'shooting' only to realise there;s no REAL answer... gosh..i hate those test..

even in SPM, i remember there was one test, objective question, that doesnt have a corrrect answer...gosh, i suppose that if it's gonna be a 'national level' exam, u ought to be double checking the answers i guess...

oh well...just ranting...

life's good..i'm happy today...

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Thank god,I have gas!!

23/3- Monday

Recently, I have been watching this show called the 'ellen degeneres show' a lot, like a few hours a day.....it's a talk show by ellen...and she's really really funny...

ellen

She's really really funny...and she makes all her viewers very happy too...

Here are some of her jokes that make lots of sense that i really really like:

1)"Sometimes when I am driving I get so angry at inconsiderate drivers that I want to scream at them. But then I remember how insignificant that is, and I thank God that I have a car and my health and gas. That was phrased wrong - normally you wouldn't say, thank God I have gas. "

2. "People always ask me, 'Were you funny as a child?' Well, no, I was an accountant. "

3. "I’m a godmother, that’s a great thing to be, a godmother. She calls me god for short, that’s cute, I taught her that."

4. "Normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it."

5. "In the beginning there was nothing. God said, “Let there be light!” And there was light. There was still nothing, but you could see it a whole lot better."

6. "My grandmother started walking five miles a day when she was sixty. She's ninety-seven now, and we don't know where the hell she is. "

7. "Procrastination isn't the problem, it's the solution. So procrastinate now, don't put it off. "

Very cute right? omg...i love her sense of humour...=)

oh, btw, she's gay and she's very cool...

on a more serious tone...i must say, my personal perception towards homosexuality has changed a lot ever since like when i was in secondary school...when i was younger, i get very very uncomfortable when i see gay couples holding hands in the shopping mall and stuff...but nowadays, i realise that i dont really mind about it anymore...well, ever since coming back from canada i guess...well, gays are very common in our society nowadays...and they are not very different from us...they are human also, and they have their right to love whoever they wanna love...and it's not our business to judge them...in fact, it's bloody rude to judge other ppl..and besides, i actually think that most gays and lesbians are very attractive/good looking...haha..strange but it;s true in my opinion...but i know some ppl still believe that homosexuality is wrong..especially in asia....bla bla bla...

oh yea, another gay actor i like:

Neil Patrick Harris

He acted in harold and kumar & how i met your mother...a really good actor and very very funny as well..=)

p/s: btw, my exam last saturday was kinda ok....i didnt have enough time to finish it...but it wasn't disastrous though...

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The Wikipedia Game

20/3- Friday

hello! there's this game called the wikipedia game...dunno whether any of u have played before or not...it's goes like this:

Step 1: Go to wikipedia.org.





Step 2: Choose a random word..can just enter any random word...eg.chicken, or pig or anything you want...OR u can click on the link on the left side that says 'random article'..

Step 3: Choose another totally unrelated word..eg..helicopter

Step4: Starting from the first article, stroll down the article..by clicking on the links on the article, try to get to the second article. The objective of the game is to get there in as few steps as possible... no cheating...you can only click on the link in the article body...external links are not allowed...

ok...

Let's play...

I'll start with the word Chocolate and i'll end with the word 'Snake'...=)




so my path is:
chocolate
veterination
animals
reptiles
snake
= 5 steps!




haha, this game gets addictive...i learnt it from youtube...haha, kinda nerdy game..so try out the game if you r free!!! post your path in my comments yea, if u have played it...=)

enjoy!

o...i'm having my genes and soc midterm 2moro morning...and i'm not really nervous about the test, but i really paranoid that i might oversleep and miss the test..

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Random rant

19/3- Thursday

You know, whenever u feel down and low, just remember this, among the millions and millions of your mum and dad's egg and sperm cells, 'YOU' are the only one who successfully emerged to be a zygote...how awesome and miraculous is that?? u beat all the other losers....you are special......haha=)

haha, just a random thought...coz i was reading my genes and society textbook...it's about biology...so dunno how, i can link it to that...=) very random...

was reading this just now.....while waiting for my video to load...which until now cannot also never load..=(

actually, i filmed a video, which i wanted to post here, but i waited for like more that 2 hours, and the video is still not uploaded on blogger..i give up...

so anyway, i decided to take some random photos with my webcam...yea..i know it's not that clear...but better than nothing lor..

my bed...my bedsheets are normally light yellow, blue or green...calm colours...nothing loud, or else i confirm cannot sleep one...i know some ppl hor, 20 something years old still use cartoon bedsheet..=)

concrete evidence...that's my wall...the paint has been peeling...horrible..coz it's right above my bed... i'm forced to change my bedsheet every week...

i didnt report it..coz i don't wanna go through the hassle of changing rooms..lazy to shift my stuff..

well...that's about it...my day today was really routine...just school and back to my hostel room...

adios....and remember YOU are SPECIAL....

haha

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Under the weather..

18/3- Wednesday



As the pic above show, i woke up today feeling weak....extreme stomachache....i really didnt want to wake up..but anyway, i woke up at 11am, coz i slept really late the night before, and i had diarrhoea (how to spell??)...horrible horrible feeling..=(...felt really dizzy after that...and i went back to bed and i ate a panadol and drank lots of water, milk and milo...that's my sick diet...whenever i m sick, i always drink lots of liquid, and hardly any 'solid food'...it helps....or eat banana...it works too...

but now i'm much better...luckily today's my free day...been watching 'jon and kate plus 8' episodes on youtube...oh..they make me feel so happy..

i'll blog more when i'm 100% OK...=)

nitez

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Incentive to wash your face...=)

16/3

so in the end, i did do some work today...even though not as much as i planned..
been doing lots of research on my supply chain project....it's on the milk scandal in china....but i'll talk about about it some other day...

I was watching youtube after I came back from school..and I came across this video...of a girl pulling out her biore strips...and for some weird reasons, i find it funny...and I feel like washing my face now...

watch it!!



did you see how much stuff came out from her nose?? woah...
and it's actually really lame to see that this video had more than a 100 000 views...but then again, i watched this video like 3 times...haha...lame i know...but i cant help it..=)

I used to use biore strips when i was younger....but nowadays, i dont use it anymore...it doesn't work on me at all...and it made my pores huge...

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Gobind suspended..

16/3
It's official....gobind singh has been suspended from parliament for a year for asking a sensitive question which all malaysians of all races thoughout the country really really want to know....well, this is the way BN operates to serve as a strict reminder to all MPs to 'jaga mulut'..and 'don't play play'..especially when it comes to sensitive issues like this....well....all i can say is, the Altantuya spirit keeps propping up and refuse to go away....whenever the news dies down after a while, new elegations arise again....well, let's just wait and see....over the next 2 weeks, umno general assembly, sure a lot of drama and news to follow.....

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I just finished my econs lecture....and i m quite confused in class....sigh...so many foreign jargons floating through my brain...capital..growth rate and it has something to do with labor i think...havent really understand the link though...now i know a bit from here, a bit from there, but all the pieces are not joined together yet...sigh...i suck at econs..potential B- alert!!...making me really nervous...

ok, so for the rest of today, my plan is to

1. do my econs tutorial...
2. supply chain revision(i m very far behind)....and group project update..
3. at night, maybe study genes and soc..

let's see how much i will do...maybe i will end up watching youtube instead...

will update tonight...

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What I did today

15/3

I had it all worked out yesterday....drew up a very comprehensive 'plan' for today...it consist of

1. 2 hours Supply chain individual assignment - Didnt do
2. 2 hours supply chain group assignment - also didnt do
3. genes and soc revision - didnt do....

sigh....i didnt even go to the library as planned...coz it was raining...and it hampered my 'initiative' to wait for the bus...

so instead....what i did today was...

revive my blog...which is not in my initial plan at alll...

well, i read this saying somewhere...that says..
"doing the right thing is the best, doing the wrong thing is second best...but not doing anything is the worst..." quoted by someone famous...hence, i wont say that my day is the worst...

I just ate maggi mee for supper....and it's making me feel really jittery now.....dunno what's inside the flavouring packet.... i'm way too awake to sleep now...but a bit too tired to read...maybe i'll read abit....textbooks often help me sleep better...=)

i guess i'll just have to do all my school work 2moro....

and there's this huge bug on my floor....and it's making me feel damn uncomfortable....i dont want to kill it....but i'm scared it will fly up and bite me...sigh...
done....swept the bug out of my room....

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New Blog

15/03

yup....so i will be starting a new blog as a continuation of my blog in canada...
so this is like chapter 2...

so far, i changed my blog template...it's still a little shabby....many things haven't fine tune yet...eg.

1. the 'about me' and 'extra' section icon on top....still empty...i might like have another link there...but i leave it as it is for now...

2. notice the subscribe icon at the bottom, dunno why it's at the side...i'm trying to get it to disappear or move it to the center...

3. my blog post date doesnt appear....hmm....i m horrible with the blog codes... will slowly figure out things..

well so far, i am liking this blog template...very 'zen' like....pretty...asian looking....actually there was one even hotter template, but that template is bloody difficult to 'personalise'....it takes me forever to just adjust stuff.....so i decided to switch...at least this one is more 'user friendly' for computer dummies like me...

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