rough day

i had a rough day today....

why everyone always come to me to release their stress?? complain about stuff they r not happy with?? let all their frustration out by telling me???

just because i appear calm and relaxed does not mean i m ok...

dont people realise i get stressed tooo??? i have worries toooo???

i have exams toooo???? midterms toooo????

assigments toooo??? u think only ur assignment is difficult ah???

u think only ur midterms r hard ar????

do i complain when i have too much to do to you ? to much to worry about????

no....coz i have no one to talk to when i m unhappy...

and i dont wanna burden other people with more negativity when they have their own stuff to worry about...

as much as i care for people around me, sometimes i swear, i get annoyed when people seem to only lash out their 'sadness'?? on me, while being insensitive enough not to notice when i'm unhappy???

arrrrrghhhhh...

arrrrrrrrrghhhh....i'm just stressed......from life............

i just wanted to let it all out.....

i'll be fine....i just had a moment of weakness..

2moro will be another day.....

and i'm sure it will be a better day...

=)

Falling..

My current favourite song..



i love it..

falling ...by a korean pianist named Yiruma..
the person playing this song is this leekaiwei person...i just randomly took it from youtube..

going back to the roots

last time when i was younger, i used to like helping other people....really i do....
it just makes me feeling happy and ...contented??

well...then when i came to singapore, suddenly i find myself being less willing to help and more calculative? ...coz i m scared that people will take advantage of me??

well...sometimes i really feel that i have changed alot...

but recently..i have been going back to my roots...

doing what i used to like to do...

reading stuff i used to like to read...

listening to songs i used to like to listen to...

watching dramas i used to like to watch...

arrgh...i'm going back to the old pohling...

which can be good and bad..

i feel i have found myself again after being lost in the maze of change, conflict and time...

(^.^)

i feel like a stalker today...

checking out profiles of people i dont really know...

Last minute queen...

I know i haven't been updating my blog lately.....my blog posting frequency has dropped till like once every 2 months....well, the main reason why i haven't been writing is caused there's nothing much going on actually....haha....everything is like normal....well, to look from the positive side, no news means good news....from a negative side, my life is boring....haha..

ok, so let me walk you through how i spent my day today...warning: it's bloody sien....=)

so this morning, my phone alarm rang at 8am...coz i had class at 10am....who am i kidding?? how would i be able to wake up so early.....i shut the alarm....slept for a while more...then finally at 8.15am, i manage to drag myself up from my bed....i think it's because i sleep with a 'comforter'....if i sleep with a comforter, it is much harder for me to get up in the morning...because it is so warm and fuzzy...=)

then woke up, brush teeth, take breakfast...make coffee....coz i must drink nescafe 3in 1..i only drink nescafe 3 in 1, cannot drink any other coffee...

then suppose to do my sociology assignment....but end up watching youtube....
9.50am..walked to arts for world history tutorial....
ok, about this tutorial....my tutor happens to be the lecturer, and he is kinda intimidating....seriously.... i dunno why....normally during tutorials, i'm kinda chill and calm...but during this tutorial, my heart is like racing so fast the entire time....normally i have things to say and even if i didnt read the readings hor, my strategy is to 'ask a question'....it always works....nothing to contribute nevermind, ask a question, confirm can get tutorial participation marks... but seriously, this lecturer kinda made everyone kinda a bit shy to say something....but nonetheless, of coz i got say something lar....coz the readings kinda overlap with my asian history readings....analyse before what....sure got things to say one...

anyway, tutorial went kinda ok...=) did I mention i loveeee history....i just love history.....u can learn so much about human nature by taking history.....and history always repeats itself....
very interesting...niceee...

and yea, then i walked back to my room....then i quickly did my soci assignment....coz dateline is at 5pm....procrastinated until 2pm...then quickly chop chop and goreng an assigment out...4.15pm, print the bloody assignment out, walked to arts to submit...oh yea, somemore i couldnt find the tutor;s post box...walao, i had a panic attack lar....scared submit late...
luckily i saw this girl from my tutorial group, she told me where it was...

then i walk back to my room...then watch youtube, dumped my clothes into the washing machine.....and now typing this blog lor...

see...basically my life is more or less the same like this everyday day......go for classes....procrastinate.....panic....then rush rush hush hush goreng assignment....then the whole cycle repeats itself again....

yups....that's it...

peace out!

Troubled soul....

It's late...it's dark...and i'm sitting on a bench at central forum....

I'm troubled...hoping to solve the problem that cant seem to be resolved...

Should i go for option A? but it would be kinda inconvenient..

How bout option B? Risky....but with high risk comes with high return...but i could get my friend into deep deep trouble.and it's not even funny anymore...help....

ARRGGHH....i cant decide on what to do...and it's bothering me...

the day will come when i have to pay the price...yea...and it's not gonna be cheap..