Emo post- a reflection of the past semester

it's been weeks since i last posted anything on this blog....

and u would probably be wondering, what's pohling doing??? she must be VERY busy with her school work, with assignments, midterms, cases, and exams to study for....

well to be honest, i did have a heavier workload this sem...taking 6 modules at one go..... this sem however, is the sem i enjoyed the most academically to be real honest...i felt that i have learnt alot....and i can genuinely feel that i can 'connect' with what i m learning....not like last sem, econs, which i hate, have to 'force' myself to swallow all the facts, then during exam, got panic attack.....

ok ler...moving on to more emo stuff....

lately, i haven't really been feeling that happy ler....those closer to me would probably know why....well, i was happy like 2 months ago....and then suddenly unhappy and awkward, then confused...and then sad and then angry and then happy and then freaking depressed again.....its just an emotional rollercoaster...

the most common feeling i have is 'confused'....the biggest problem i have is i dont know what i want....and that i dont know what i feel....why m i so emotional????? why????? why m i so illogical?? always creating so many dramas and blowing things way out of proportion????and why is some people so logical and lack emotions????? i dont need u to analyse my erratic behaviour...i know i m a crazy and emo girl...no need to analyse my actions for me.... dont manipulate me...dont try to 'read' my mind, coz there nothing much in it apart from many wires that dont connect.....

sometimes i wonder how i can survive all this while, while being so naive and innocent....always so blur, so mung cha cha, so apathetic, what also dont care, dont bother....i m very contented in not knowing too much...sometimes, knowing too much is not a good thing....why are some people always striving to seek the TRUTH??? is the truth really that important???? is it always the best option to do the right thing???

so what type of coffee do i like to drink??? am i drinking the right kind of coffee now???? i dunno.....do i hate the coffee i m drinking now? no.....the coffee taste finee....it taste ok...and it does its job of keeping me awake...but all this caffeine stimulation have sort of grown on me....nowadays, i need a double dose of caffeine to stay awake as compared to before....which led to me thinking that maybe this isnt the 'type' of coffee for me in the long run.....maybe i need a stronger coffee for a coffee addict like me....or is it that i grew accustomed to the coffee i have been drinking lately? i dunno whether i could break the habit of not drinking that coffee....whether i will have any withdrawal effects....but lately, this coffee sort of doesnt taste the same as it taste before....am i sort of getting 'jelak' of the coffee i m drinking????? which got me thinking whether i should try more coffees to compare the taste?? after all, the supermarket has plenty of other coffees that have nicer packaging and reviews?? and u know how much i loveeee a pretty packaging...=)

well anyways, my coffee example is the perfect example as to why too much coffee is bad for health ler...haha...anyways, no need to take my post and rants too seriously ler....i just wanna voice my inner thoughts...=)

okler...havings holidays now since exams over..

will be spending quality time with my popo and my family before going back home for the holidays...=)

feeling calm and happy!!

=)

i love it when it rains

I love it when it rains...

it feels so soothing and calm...

it feels so peaceful...

the raindrops give a very repetitive and relaxing sound...

the rain makes everything more romantic..

i love it when it rains..

The best shampoo i have ever used....Asience

hihi....

didnt have time to blog lately....coz i was super stress from midterms...still got one more on thursday....god, cant wait for it to be over...

sorry about my last blog post....dunno why i was so stressed, but confirm i was having pms....my mood was yoyo-ing the entire week...=)

ok, back to the topic...

today, i wanna talk about shampoo....coz i m having a good hair day....haha...

the shampoo which i m using now is :




Asience shampoo + conditioner...the moisture one...the gold bottle...

it is very moisturising...

bought this from watsons....i think any pharmacy also sells this....its a japanese brand...Kao...but the description on the bottle is all in jap...
it has this very 'weird' smell....and it's really really strong...but i dont really mind it that much...but it really is a very very good shampoo...

i cant imagine using any other shampoo either than this shampoo....i sort of fell in love with it....

but hor, this shampoo got one tiny problem, when u wash your hair, u must really make sure u clean your scalp thoroughly, to avoid leaving a residue that can cause dandruff...

and the price of the shampoo i think it's about the same as Pantene....i think? dunno ler...but one bottle can last very long....but it;s still not as good as salon brands like kerastase..

very good for dry hair....this is the only shampoo that can control my frizzy hair...
and the ends of my hair dont feel so dry....

coz last time i used Dove, the old that came in the dark blue bottle, it was the moisture therapy for dry hair/damaged hair...it wasnt moisturising enough for me...

and i used the pink sunsilk one before for a super long time, this one smells very nice, but hor, really a bit dry for me also...

so if anyone has dry hair, try Asience...very good!

rough day

i had a rough day today....

why everyone always come to me to release their stress?? complain about stuff they r not happy with?? let all their frustration out by telling me???

just because i appear calm and relaxed does not mean i m ok...

dont people realise i get stressed tooo??? i have worries toooo???

i have exams toooo???? midterms toooo????

assigments toooo??? u think only ur assignment is difficult ah???

u think only ur midterms r hard ar????

do i complain when i have too much to do to you ? to much to worry about????

no....coz i have no one to talk to when i m unhappy...

and i dont wanna burden other people with more negativity when they have their own stuff to worry about...

as much as i care for people around me, sometimes i swear, i get annoyed when people seem to only lash out their 'sadness'?? on me, while being insensitive enough not to notice when i'm unhappy???

arrrrrghhhhh...

arrrrrrrrrghhhh....i'm just stressed......from life............

i just wanted to let it all out.....

i'll be fine....i just had a moment of weakness..

2moro will be another day.....

and i'm sure it will be a better day...

=)

Falling..

My current favourite song..



i love it..

falling ...by a korean pianist named Yiruma..
the person playing this song is this leekaiwei person...i just randomly took it from youtube..

going back to the roots

last time when i was younger, i used to like helping other people....really i do....
it just makes me feeling happy and ...contented??

well...then when i came to singapore, suddenly i find myself being less willing to help and more calculative? ...coz i m scared that people will take advantage of me??

well...sometimes i really feel that i have changed alot...

but recently..i have been going back to my roots...

doing what i used to like to do...

reading stuff i used to like to read...

listening to songs i used to like to listen to...

watching dramas i used to like to watch...

arrgh...i'm going back to the old pohling...

which can be good and bad..

i feel i have found myself again after being lost in the maze of change, conflict and time...